My Chaotic Realm

I do a random oracle type pull every morning... today's card tells me "I look for the meaning of life within myself." The back of the card says "If you want to find a deeper meaning in your life, you can't find it in the opinions or the beliefs that have been handed to you. You have to go to that place within yourself." Hmmm... Reminds me of the Charge of the Goddess , where it says "And you who seek to know Me, know that the seeking and yearning will avail you not, unless you know the Mystery: for if that which you seek, you find not within yourself, you will never find it without." Yesterday's Oracle was Vesta, the Roman goddess of hearth & home. In Greek times, she was called Hestia. She reminded me to clear out some space, light candles, make it warm & inviting for yourself. However, instead of doing that, went to visit Peace last night and her new house! She wont be moving in until August as there are some other things to take c

Once upon a time, when I visited my relative, I found some social security checks languishing. Relative was not in good health and was unable to get checks to bank. Some had already expired they were so old. So I set up a direct deposit account with me as signer so I could grocery shop, pick up presciption medications, etc. Then, a couple of years later relative fell and was placed in a nursing home full time. At that point, a parental unit took over the checkbook since now responsible for all the nursing home bills, selling the house, etc. However, I remained a signer on the account as I visited weekly and delivered sundry items. September 2001 brought the Twin Towers ordeal and the death of relative. When I asked about closing the bank account I was told bank would need death certificate to close it out and it would "All be taken care of". Now, I find out that it was NOT "taken care of" ... and that an monthly annuity stipend found its way into the account for